passaporte!

first fredrick took me to walmart to get my passport picture taken and then fredrick took me to the passport office in st. paul to register for my passport. i hope it'll come before my next birthday because i want to go to mexico for my 40th birthday and like i said before, the pca who went with me to boston said mexico will let me into their country since i'm a dual citizen but there's no guarantees i'll be let back in this country for sure without a passport. it doesn't pay to tell my mom since she magically knows how to read my blog now (when she claimed she couldn't read my whole life and that's why she never worked but she magically knows how to read my blog all of a sudden). good.. now she can read how ashamed i am to have a person like her as my mom. especially since she took it upon herself to use me as a shield while my dad was kicking her. people can try to condone that shit but WERE YOU THERE?! DID YOU WITNESS MY DAD KICKING AND BEATING ON MY MOM WHILE SHE COINCIDENTALLY HAD ME IN HER ARMS AND *TURNED* WHILE SHE HAD ME IN HER ARMS TO GET AWAY FROM HIM?! (AS MY GRANDMA CLAIMED) IF THAT LOAD OF SHIT IS TRUE- I WOULDN'T HAVE HAD TO GO THROUGH NOT ONE BUT TWO SURGERIES ON MY BOWEL (THE DOCTORS ASKED MY GRANDMA IF I HAD TRAUMA CAUSED TO MY ABDOMEN DURING THE FIRST SURGERY ON MY PERFORRATED BOWEL AND SHE CONVENIENTLY NEGLECTED TO TELL HIM ABOUT GETTING KICKED BY MY DAD ON ACCIDENT WHEN MY MOM AND DAD WAS FIGHTING! :o *ROLLS EYES*). MY MOM HASN'T HAD TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR ANY OF THE SHIT SHE WAS TO BLAME FOR AND AFTER THIS LAST SURGERY- I'VE HAD IT. amy can try to call me and bitch about something mom did to her but until she's had to have TWO surgeries because of my mom's narcissism and selfishness- SHE CAN TELL SOMEONE WHO CARES AND IT AIN'T GONNA BE ME. you've picked the wrong horse to back on this one. as long as my financial workers and my family (amanda and her mom i'm guessing) continue to condone this shit- i WILL be working my ass to get the fuck outta this state. i could go to mexico but i'm guessing that i might wanna get a little more fluent in the language and possibly more familiar with the country? i also told someone (i forget who it was- mighta been the nurse who fills my anodyne machine) that if i can't go to mexico by my 40th birthday- i could always take a trip to puerto rico and the nurse said that was a good alternative because it's somewhat like mexico but still an american territory. i don't think i've been to that region before yet either.. so i'd be interested in that. we'll see how fast things get done though!
in other news.. i feel like a damn old bag of bones. it's getting colder and i can literally feel it in MY BONES. i may be forced to take a tylenol before i head to bed, because i seen on the generic bottle of tylenol i have- arthritis relief. so that may relieve me.